Showing posts with label with the Word. Show all posts
Showing posts with label with the Word. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

The Tongue's Anchor


A pretty typical morning led to an extraordinary moment.  We gathered for family time.  The baby was down for an early nap.  Each child grabbed a spot and waited for the reading from James. 

Little Bug, on the other hand, was intent on staking his claim on one that was already occupied.   He rolled.  He bit.  He nudged.  Whatever it took, he was there to stay.

Tensions rose.  I began to speak through clinched teeth and finally abruptly popped up, nursing babe and all, to remove the culprit from the room. 

But, the damage was already done.  The mood had turned ugly.  Words became weapons, and I, myself, was on the brink of spewing technicolored arrows all over the room.

I closed my eyes and silently begged, "Lord, help me to hold my tongue," then started over, "Lord, you are gonna have to hold my tongue."

And with great gentleness, as always, He replied, "The way I'll hold your tongue is for you to put my Word on the tip."  And my heart melted. 

We broke open the Bread together, and the book of James held three little verses, right where we left off a few days before:

My dear brothers, take note of this:  Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.  Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.

Which. Can. Save. You.  Those four words took hold of my tongue and left me speechless.

No will power or deep breaths or counting to ten or even pleas for help to get ourselves out of our mess will anchor the tongue and save our souls from slamming hard against another.   Holding His Word on the tip of the tongue secures it to a weight sure enough to hold.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

The Beauty School Drop Out



I must admit it.  Here, as publically as possible: I'm a beauty school drop out. 

This book~

The Word
   Bread
  Water
Sword
  Mirror
 
~is the tool in His beauty school, where He labors to make me not me.  To tug and pull out the tangled mess.  To purify clogged pores.  To straighten the twisted.  To burn away the unwanted weight.  To open sealed eyes, closed ears.  To pump blood into dead hearts.

Here, He doesn't brush on a cosmetic solution, creating a false, temporary beauty.  He does the real work, the hard work we want to avoid.  The work that makes us, honestly, run for the ease of blush and hair color.

So, why do I drop out continually?  Push the Word aside and grab for others through my day?  Allow my failures at memorization to create a bondage from returning, trying again and again and again?
Could it be that I really don't understand after 35 years as His what His school really offers me?

But, I read about its importance anew.  And I am challenged and enlivened as I read, am reminded that the goal really is about wanting Him more.  Falling in love.  Finding Him the most satisfying joy.  And I can see now that as one that belongs to Him it isn't so much about pointing out my flaws and imperfections and lack of measuring up (though at times there is some of that) but training me to see His beauty.  And maybe something even more amazing.

He invites me to sit in the chair then pumps it high for me to see and turns me to face the mirror.  And there I can ever so faintly begin to see the reflection.